ok, i really need to get some stuffs out of my system.
whenever i try to let someone know about my problems, i guess it comes out wrong, because people seem to get highly affended.

so, let's get this straight; i am going to continuously type my fingers off untill my brain is numb. nothing i say is meant to hurt anyone, and may seem put out of proportion, but that's just because that's how much some little things bother me.

oh yeah, and you don't have to read this, i don't plan on having complete sentences or anything, well maybe kinda, i dunno. i'm just getting something out of my system, well, a little bit out, so i'm not so full of crazy thoughts

here i go

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FFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!
oh my god i hate some people! fuck fuck fuck i wish natatatataa would leave me alone go the fuck away i don't give a shit about you, so don't try to give a shit about me go the fuck away i hate you aweifhszl jkc nvaseljhnsodzfgjnozlimnhxlkhnmgz;ilh
catatatatattataa! puorquoi!!!!!!! ariel is MY sister, not yours! go away and stay away
germs eat right not discusting
all my fault, sure what the helll
i miss you so much
friends here or against me what the fuuuuuuuuuckweffhz.dkjgc mzlsdijgz;cdokf
am i mean or should i be or am supossed to just go along with stuff
but i thought people were supossed to stand up for themselves, but my friends think otherwise
I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO POP INTO YOUE LIFE, TRY TO TAKE SOMEONE'S SPOT, AND THEN DON'T GET WHAT'S GOING ON, SO THEY ASK SO MANY UNNESSECARY QUESTIONS> I MEAN SURE, THEY DON'T KNOW STUFF, SO NEED TO ASK QUESTIONS. IT'S NOT THEiR FAULT THEY MIGHT SAY SOMETHING OFFENSIVE! WELL, IT IS! I DIDN"T FEEL LIKE HAVING THEM THERE ANYWAYS! I SAY CERTAIN THINGS IN CERTAIN WAYS SO THAT ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO I WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING KNOW, NO ONE ELSE
she thought of catat first
should i feel upset?
why not me first
i really am her sister, not catat
so she should think of me first!
but then that's wrong, because i'm thinking of me first too when i say this
so it's jealousy
but why am i jealous of CATAA? i hate her!
oh no, i hate her because i'm jealous of her.
well, originally, FUCK NO
but maybe because she spends time with arara i'm jealous?
but i don't ask her to spend time with her! she just buts in!
my mom likes her too!
but since i don't like her, i try to avoid her, to prevent anything bad from happening
but then that's how she sneeks herself into my life! FGiwjherlgoicshrvloihjznvosaierjpm,oij
and then i feel bad aboutkirkrirkfir, because she tries to be nice, but goes too far
BUT I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF NATATATATAA NO, I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE ANYMORE CHANCES. Y'ALL MAY NOT KNOW THIS, BUT I HAVE GIVEN HER SO MANY CHANCES, YOU WILL NOT BEliEVE! I WANT HER TO GO AWAY, BUT SHE"S FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS! EVEN MY BEST FRIEND! I TRY TO TELL MY BEST FRIEND, AND THEN SHE SAYS, 'YEAH, SHE"S JUST CLINGY' AND THEN I EXLPAINN HOW SHE MUCH SHE REALLY AGRIVATES ME, AND THEN'WOAH< YOU'RE GOING TOO FAR, STOP'! YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND! I TELL YOU THESE THINGS BECAUSE I LOOK UP TP YOU FOR ADVICE! CAN'T YOU SEE I HAVE DEEP MENTAL PROBLEMS? LITERALLY?! I WOULD LIKE SOME HELP PLEASE, NOT JUST'WOAH, STOP'!
oh, and then why do people have to ruin music for me? seriously? coaalaaoal and timtitmitmtimt were so freaking rude and disrespectful! seriously! how can they be so fucking rude!

i miss mi padre, alot. mi madre says i need counseling because i have deep emotional scars or somtin. god, why did daddy have to go?!!!!! why???!!!!!! i miss him too much! come back please?! this joke isn't funny! COME BACK! I MISSS YOU!!!!!

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ok, i can't type anymore, to distracted from tears



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that sounded waaaayyy to pitiful and emotional
i'm sorry, it sounds really selfish saying things like that
oh look at me, trying to be all modest now...
fudge it all

mmm, i like fudge


ok, no more random rambles, i mean it!

ps, what if "ps" stood for "platypus stripes"

yeah, bye